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I can't trust a family anymore because all I hear is judging me all the time. I know Ive made some mistakes we all have, we are not perfect but God. I have been called every name in the book by my own family. And at times I don't call or visit them just to stay away from problems. But even if there is nothing between them I hear this and that about me either way and it hurts so much. I had at one time talk to a family member about something I was going through and she turn around and made it bigger then it was. I trusted her and I feel she has betryed me my trust will never be the same. stop talking to her, but even iif I did she still accuse me of doing this and that when we live miles away. And the thing is that my mom beleives her and takes her side and makes me cry all the time. Some how to them I seem to be the bad one. I go to church and pray and read "OUR DAILY BREAD" and I have faith in God. But this seems to make me feel bad nothing that I do is good for them. I even ask God if Ive done anything bad to please forgive me especially for all my sins. I even ask God to help me change to that person Im suppost to be. So what else can I do or say for that matter ?

Im going throw something I never thought that
just thinking about it its hard to say. My own mom has told me to go to hell for what reason I have no idea. She is 66 yrs old and has no one but each time I call her she never has time for me. I haven't seen her for more then a yr but also my parents were divorced along time ago. My dad pass away in 2005. But going back to my mom she has always been the hard person never to say "I LOVE YOU". You can just imagen I have medical problems and also a brother of mine both me and him are close. But I don't know but my mom favors my other brother just cause he sends her money and gifts. I don't have those things all I can offer is LOVE. But I don't know but now my brother the one who sends things to my mom also started me bad. Im wondering what is wrong with them too I haven't done them nothing at all. I go to church to pray maybe like 3 times in a week I even talk to a priest to see if I was the problem. But turns out that they have to change I feel at peace each time I go to the church and pray. I beleive in God and always will Im just feeling bad by the way both my mom and brother treat me. So now Im thinking maybe because I accepted God in my life and I feel like a total different person this now happens to me.

I read Our Daily Bread every morning one thing ive would like to to say is there's so many beautiful things that ive have learn. Like the dust in your home is negitive so actually you got to dust every 2 to 3 days. You don't want negitive in your home and also your car's or what ever you may have. Start a new year with positive things in your life. The dust affects your lifestyle,job,food and ect. So I say God bless everyone. Amen.

Sorry ive haven't been here is that im been feeling a little sick with anemia. But to ive been feeling so depress because its going to be my dad's birthday on dec 22 and he no longer with us. My dad always made me smile and I just miss him. But I haven't forgotten about my true friends I beleive that things happen for a reason. Well may everyone have a wonderful christmas and a happy new year 2012.

Anything is possible if you beleive in God if He can move a mountain He can do anything. I thank everyone for all the support may God bless everyone in Jesus name. Amen.

 in response to G2...   Thank u so much I beleive in God and always will I have faith in God and I know some how things will change to better. I thank u for being so undering may God bless u always.....

 in response to alys-mah...   Yes I know but she is always doing this to me and I have many medical problems......

Being sick make's it so hard to do what you have to do. Also when you have a daughter at home that talks back to you and says your lazy that your faking make's it so hard. My daughter make's me cry and make's me feel like im nothing to her even if she has mental problems she trys to tell me what to do at time's. So many time's I tell her I can't do anything around the house I feel so tired most of the time. If I don't clean she don't do anything at all she can see me laying down sick and she still will not do nothing for me not even give me a glass of water. I feel like she don't treat me right and plus im always so sleepy and tired all the time. Does anyone have any idea's to say to my daughter like advise something to help me for her to change ?

 in response to ekikaseven...   Yea I understand only that we as parents always want the best for them but at times they choose the wrong way. I feel bad to see any kids suffer even if there mine or not I care about everyone or anyone. I hope that before they do something they think for a minute to see if its worth it or not or take a chance. They can do better just as long as an adult really makes time for them and advise them well as what they have gone throught at one time or another.

 in response to ekikaseven...   Thank you because only if you knew im always being judge by my own daughter that I do this and that. But you know she don't come by to see me and at times she make's me cry but too I try not to cry because she tell me things on the phone. But too I will not ever treat her that way just be a mom well thanks for understanding and God bless you.......

 in response to ekikaseven...   Thank you so much I need all the prayer I can get and God bless you.

 in response to stirtime...   Thank you and I will look in to that and may God bless you ....

 in response to perserverance...   I did raise my daughter right I was raise mostly with my grandparents and I put everything I had. But my daughter is 31 yrs old and she is married and has 4 little girls of her own and also has a husband. He is a good provider and works hard for his family all I can do is keep praying and have faith in God..........

 in response to alys-mah...   I see all this bad happening and im wondering what happen to the kids ? I remember something call RESPECT your parents but nope not no more. That is so sad because it make you wonder why they treat you that way. But you know they can't judge us we made mistakes but now like now in days this is so sad. But I say have faith in God and God bless you.......

 in response to alys-mah...   Thank you I can also imagen how you must feel because how we are treated after we had them and took care of them. It doesen't make sence to me,but you know in time they will snap but then it can be to late no one actually knows. I feel bad because I never treated her that way not even my mom. But I have faith in God and I know everything will be alright. And im so sorry for what ur going through I will pray for the one's that having the same problem as we are well take care and God bless you always....

I know that some of us go through this we leave our husbands/wife and some how they say we left them for another. How can it be ? I don't think that's fair to cover the truth and make thenselves look good with the kids. Then the kids mistreat us and expect us to go back to them after we were mistreated,cheated,lied and never wanted to work and do for there family. You can't be with that person that never did for you and your family,just because there are kids it don't mean you gotta stay with them. I know cause ive been through this before I tryed and did what I could and he never changed. He even stared to sell drugs and mistreat people and do them wrong. I felt so bad when he would even hurt me and my kids. And also to find out he sexually molested my two sisters while I was married to him. Now im things who was I married too ? One of my sister were killed by her husband at the age of 25yrs old. It was hard for me to accept her death but as time went by I learn to forgive him. I said if God forgive us why am I judging him ? Then my other sister told me this year she remember's my exhusband sexually molested her while she was asleep at the age of 16yrs old. I think this man should be put away and not get away with it, I don't feel sorry for him. Only that I can't beleive what he did to my two sisters. When I was married to him he would drag me by my hair and kick me with his steal toe boots and accuse me of cheating while he was doing that to me. I can say alot and a big list can go on.but the point is im tired of being blame that I did this and that. Now this is me im just me trying to do good things praying and hoping for the best even if I have medical problems im not gonna let this get to me. I just would like "JUSTICE" Thank you and God bless you all......always "gardenangel"

 in response to gardenangel...   I ment God made man for a woman and woman for man....

 in response to ekikaseven...   Thank you for the beautiful prayer to me every prayer counts. Well I always pray for my daughter to change she has her own family and doing what she does sneeking around will not make things any better. I can't judge her for what she does but she is the one who has to ask forgiveness to Our Heavenly Father. Its a sin to have two lives you have to choose one because God only choose one life which Good made a man for a woman. I do admit I felt that I was to the one to blame but it wasen't me I am not at fault. My daughter needs to take care of her family while her husband is working so hard for them to provide what they need. My daughter doesen't go to church or even pray she is always at her friends house and does more for her then her own family. I hope and pray God Works on her to become the wife and mother she was before. At times im wondering did I do or say anything wrong ? I always told her once you become a wife then mother you will know responsibilties as being an adult. But it seem's that instead of getting better its getting out of hand and out of control that her little girls disrespect her as there mother. I never did nothing that bad to dispoint my mom and worry her like that. I don't even get to see my grandchildren like im suppost to you can say I see them maybe one or twice a year if im lucky. But im gonna keep praying for God to Work on her I know He can do the Impossible...Well take care and God bless you and your family always "gardenangel"

I need help to pay my rent and its 825.00 a month and its almost going to be 2 months. I have call many places and no luck at all I am so worried that I don't know what to do anymore. I go to church and have faith in God so please anyone can please help me ? And also my light is about to be cut off on Sept 30,2011 in the amount of 271.52 and the light company is TXU. Im just falling back more then anything so please can anyone help me ? And God bless everyone...

Im a latina and im 48yrs old I was born in Corpus Christi, Texas and I was married for 20yrs. Out of my marriage I had 3 daughters and a son I was abuse many times from my husband for 20yrs. But the reason I stayed so long with my exhusband was because of my kids. I was afraid that my kids would get abuse by someone else so I stayed with my exhusband. I got married so young at the age of 16yrs old. I tryed my best to take care of my family but nothing that I did was right for my exhusband. He didn't want to work or provide for me and our kids. I struggle so much with him and the abuse was getting worse and there was so much jelousy that there was no trust at all. When I finally left him in 1997 that was the time of my life. But then in 1998 I was told I have Thyroid Cancer then was told I have to see the doctor for the rest of my life. But later in the yrs I was told I have high blood pressure then anemia and have had 4 blood transfusions and my anemia is pretty bad. Even that the doctor has also told me I have very little eye sight and that I can died in my sleep. Just imagen how my life is I always thought that being divorce was the best thing for me but this medical problems and now worried about rent and bills makes it so hard for me. I beleive in God and always will and I also have faith in God.Just wanted for you to know a little of me so if you have any questions please fill free to ask me...